"No matter how good you are you will never be good enough to get to heaven. You will never be good enough to earn God‘s love or His blessing in your life, because no amount of good works can earn our salvation or God’s Love. It is only by faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior that are we saved, justified, sanctified, sealed by the Holy Spirit and promised eternity in heaven. It doesn’t matter what church you go to. There are no denominations in heaven. Only believers, followers, disciples and lovers of Jesus.
You want to be free. I know you do. But you’re afraid of what others will say or think of you; and perhaps what they will do to you.
The Bible says there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. The Bible says believe on the Lord Jesus and you will be saved. He doesn’t tell you to go wash and perform all kinds of rites and rituals before you can come to Him or before you can get into heaven. He simply says come as you are and believe who He is and what He has done for you. While hanging and dying on the cross for our sins, Jesus said, 'It Is Finished.'" ~Mara
Stop striving to be accepted and believe that you are accepted by the One who created you and loves you more than you could ever hope or imagine to be loved and accepted by anyone here on earth.